And I could've avoided it

Last night I tried again, and I IMed him. Even though I completely and totally warned myself not to after the last time. When I said hello. Then he logged off. Thaaaanks.

But yesterday, he wasn't on the bus. So naturally, I've obsessively curious and worried. I assumed he was sick, because he also didn't attend Seminary. Most likely a benefit for me, because I probably wouldn't have been able to speak out as much as I did. I just can't speak around him. No big.

Later that night, I see he's on Facebook, further confirming my belief that he's home sick. So I say hello, pointing out the obvious fact that he wasn't at school.

After not a few moments of cyber silence, I decide to pick together what is left of any dignity I possessed, and logged off.

Great job Mare. When are you gonna learn?